Happy Harvest Festival!

Today is the Harvest Festival here at church and of course it is Halloween. It seems weird that these two things are the same to me, but very different to many people. My kids will go out tonight and trick or treat - Ash as a 50's girl, Mikey as Black Spidey, and Gracie as a Geisha (she picked it out - don't know why). I look forward to seeing the neighbors that I trick or treated to for the last 30 years - it brings it all back the feeling of youth and the excitement you felt. I also like coming here to church and getting more candy. 2 years ago Mikey made a commitment for Christ here at this event and that is so significant to me.

Surgery is Scheduled

So, we went into today and found out that my uterus is falling and that is most of my pain issues so we are getting the uterus removed on November 26. I am a bit nervous but happy that I have a month to get things ready. Still processing it.

Cheerleading

Today I start coaching the cheerleaders at Christ Lutheran and I am a bit nervous. There are 13 girls and I don't know their cheers but I am bringing some of mine. It should be interesting since this weekend has been really painful and I get kinda crabby when I am in this amount of pain. Hopefully I will not have a problem with them and all will go well.

Party was great!

We had 20 kids show up and they all seemed like good kids. It was fun and did not get out of hand. Then 6 girls stayed overnight and I did not become 'the mom' until 1:30 am when I said 'NO MORE TALKING!'. It was great to see Ashley have a good time and now I need some sleep.

Morbid thoughts

So, I did something that some might think is morbid last night. I came home from hanging out with my girlfriend and with coffee and a lot of emotions still encompassing me I wrote letters to my kids for them to receive if I were to die. I should say I have thought a lot about this letter thing since I read it in a magazine a few months back and grew fond of the idea of speaking from beyond the grave. I would like to have more time to be more specific but that is not happening today as the party is on for tonight even though Ashley's room is a war zone and the kitchen floor and table are yet to be found. I will get to them soon and it will not be half as hard as I think it would be. Kids will not care if the steps are not vacuumed but I will so that will have to get done. So off to read for awhile and enjoy a cup of coffee on my day 'off' and then get to housecleaning!

What a wonderful world

I love fall. It is my favorite season! It is funny because I hate change but fall is the one season that continually changes. Ashley has a party at our house tomorrow night and kids have been invited outside of the class so we will see how crowded it becomes. I wonder if I should dress up? Ashley would be so embarrassed but her friend said it would be stupid if I didn't so we will see. I have a shirt that says 'costume' on it that I have worn for years now. I feel so peaceful today but still looking forward to a cup of Caribou soon!

God bless the Broken Road that led me straight to Steve!

I am a bit sappy this morning as I remember that I am so blessed to have a man who loves me and puts up with me even though lately I have been a wreck. So, this tumor in my uterus is a source of tension for me and him. It does affect him also, and I understand wanting to fix it but I want to know how and when and how long I am off work and my world has to stop. We go in Tuesday to get our answers but until then things keep going on the calendar. God will work it out - He always does. I need to give it all away and trust, something I always need to work on.

Life keeps chugging along

Just as a friend spoke of signs of aging I have come to realize that I too am really old. I no longer can stay up with girlfriends and eat junk food and NOT suffer from it. I no longer can tolerate whining past 9 pm and I no longer desire to stay up til all hours of the night just 'cuz I can. Although, my spirit is young. I want to giggle with my family and friends. I want to sing at the top of my lungs and spin around like on The Sound of Music. I want to embrace that today is a new day and Tuesdays are always better than Mondays. Ok now I am ready to go forward and maybe do my hair at least some things do not change - I love ponytails and easy comfortable clothing still.

High School Musical 2 Party tonight!

I know that sounds weird for a bunch of 30 something's to have a party over a Disney show but that is what we are doing. It is a clean version of Dirty Dancing. Fun movie! Then some karaoke revolution and we have a night! Yeah, I am wild!

Why can't we all be happy ALL the time?

OK, I have found this blogging thing to be very therapeutic and a good way to be open when I would rather never share anything than with a few people in the world. I think I need to type a frustration list and let it stay in cyberspace and give it to God and not think about it for a while.

Frustrations

1. My daughter is growing up too fast.
2. My body is not cooperating with me and I don't want surgery.
3. This working out has not changed my life as so many said it would.
4. I worry too much about everything.
5. I want to give the best to my family and I often fall short.

Believe it or not just putting it out in front of me takes a load of - so any advice on any of these just post would love to hear - however I don't give out candy but will have you over for dinner!

Sleeping in

I know this concept is foreign to my friends who have small children but I have older children(remember they were once small) that still do not sleep through the night but that let me sleep in. The first one got up at 8 am and the second 8:45 am and I heard Ashley open her door at about that time and turn on the tv downstairs. Even though I warn them to be silent I still enjoy the giggling they do in the morning and how easy it is to wake up to that(don't tell them they will only laugh louder).
Today is not so busy - just spinning and maybe a bonfire if the weather cooperates, but other than that I am winging it and love the idea of not having to go anywhere!

Let the games begin!

We are off to the dr. and then to work and then a lunch with the school in our building and then to bowling and finally a thing I have waited for but can't talk about until tomorrow and then home. I don't like the word 'busy'. I believe it is a choice and if you let your schedule control you it seems you never enjoy where you are at presently. I am enjoying the thought of coffee as I wait at the dr. office with the kids, but other than that I can only get done what comes at me at that minute. Luckily, I have three helpers today! Well, breakfast time!

Overload!!

Work was overloaded today and my head is still trying to process what I need to get done for tomorrow. I do not like feeling overwhelmed, but it will pass. My kids have Thursday and Friday off and Friday should be fun. We are bowling with the youth tomorrow and I hope that I get above a 20. Off to spinning!

Morning rush

I never thought I need routine so badly as I really do. I love that my kids are old enough to know what to do next. I am so thankful for coffee - isn't that sad? Such a little thing as special creamer can make my day go from augh to ahh! Can't wait for the sun though.

Work?

I often wonder what I consider more work. The office, the kids, the cleaning, the acting like everything is ok, or just the organizing it all in general. I see the kids as a blessing now more than ever and the cleaning just doesn't get done enough to be work. The acting is the most work because it it the only thing I put solely upon myself. I do like my job and when I do organize I like that also. JOY is what I am working on!!

I love my mommy and daddy!

My folks are 'drive-by' parents as they have appointments here in the cities and then drop something off at our house and drive away. Well, yesterday my dad helped Steve do some tree trimming and it was so great to spend a few hours with them - they are so great and the kids adore them! I hate that they go to Florida every year but do love to visit them there!

Not so flowery today

I am so sore from working out and Yvonne is making me go again tonight! I do enjoy the time we spend as we build up our bodies with strength and peace - the no kids thing is a plus! I am starting to long for a sunny day but know that I can not see outside so it might be sunny - no windows in my cubicle. Looking forward to my day off tomorrow and being home.

What a friend we have in Jesus!

I had the opportunity to be interviewed by the Seniors class in our church and I can't wait to grow old and to be wise! I so hope that the Lord allows me to live in Him for a long time! Life is a bit unexpected and due to a Dr. appointment I am now getting a little nervous about things but Jesus can take it all!! As my son was working on his memory verse this morning for school which was 'Cast all your anxiety on Him for He cares for you' I knew that God was talking directly to me! What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and grief to bear, what a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer. What a joy we often forfeit oh, what needless pain we bear. All because we did not carry everything to God in prayer!

Back from hearts at home

I finally remember what I love about being a mom and a wife and what blessings God gave me! I needed this weekend!