Waiting on the World to Change

Change. I hate change, but yet so long for the weather change, the mood change, the rut to change, the day to change. I need it yet am uncomfortable with it. Too bad for me. Change is always happening and I need to just go along for the ride and deal.

Here is what changing in my world

• my kids - they keep growing and becoming more and more individual
• my mindset - I can do whatever God asks of me and I will be obedient
• my self - image - I know who I am and will work on what needs to be worked on and be content with the rest
• my heart - I want to show love more and want to see people find the only Love that matters

God is in Control

The week is flying by which is good. It means it is almost warm again for the weekend. Weird trend to have warm weekends and weekdays that I just want to stay in bed until it warms up again.

Had a good talk with my friend and know that God has given me this relationship with her and how blessed I am! I still dislike topics that are not easy but God is pushing me forward, not backwards and I will always listen even if He has to drag me kicking and screaming!

I Get By with a Little Help from Friends

Some days are definitely better than others but when you have good friends it does not matter much. My friends in life have been great. I am having a 'discussion' with one this week as we have had something come between us that really does not involve us directly but I will be glad to clear the air and yet scared at the same time.

How do you deal with conflict? I usually like to ignore it or run - I guess I must be maturing a little to actually deal with it. (At least that is what I am telling myself!)

Dream, Dream, Dream

I have lots of dreams floating around in my head lately. Mostly tropical places and warm sun not in a parka. Dreams of health, family being home and together, my friends finally getting their dreams met, and dreams of energy. I look at my life and see that I have a lot.

I was pulling in my driveway the other day and thought back to when I lived in an apartment in Virginia and paid $275/month and we barely made it and now I am back in my old neighborhood - something I never thought would happen. Me, once a knocked up teen, turned abused wife, turned single working mom living in her parents basement, to wife of a wonderful man and wonderful children living in surburbia serving a God who has given more than anything I can ever dream of.

We are Family

I have been a mother for 13 years. I have grown so much from watching my kids become real little people. I have watched them learn to speak, walk, run, read, show self-control, love one another, love God and love me (even when I do not deserve it). Some days have been better than others but their smiles always warm my heart. God is so great to allow these beautiful people in my life even if it is going by so fast. My oldest now is 6 inches taller than me and probably smarter than me, but she can never love me more than I love her. They may hear me yell as they run through the house, roll their eyes, pick on each other, but I am still taking in every minute that they give me. I wish I could remember more often that they will only be this age once and I should cherish it.

Heat Wave

I am dreaming of a hot days, buds on the trees, happy flowers blooming, and not having to bundle up every time I go out! I am ready for it to stay 20 or above for awhile!!

My Funny Valentine

I believe that Hallmark and other such industries are doing very well today! I got a fun card from my hubby that sings Johny Cash "Walk the Line". He got me candy and we got the girls jewelry and candy and Mikey candy and a pen (no reference to Say Anything). I the practical one got him a new shirt which he looks like candy in so I think it is the same. We are either going to see the new VeggieTales movie tonight or to Chuck E Cheese. Either way I don't cook and we all have fun. The kids have a 4 day weekend and so do I. Looking forward to that. Saturday our Sunday School class is having its annual Valentines dinner which is always fun. We play the Newlywed game and enjoy time as adults.

I'm so Dizzy My head is Spinning

So, throughout the whole surgery thing my kids and hubby all had the stomach flu and some major colds. I got none. I am very thankful for that! Now I got the cold - just started working out and feeling normal and all I want to do is crawl back into bed but my son was sick on Monday and the kids have Friday and Monday of next week off so I must work!!! I am dreaming of vacation and warm sun!

I am looking forward to a cup of Caribou this morning as my throat aches. What is your comfort for when you are down?

I also like Cheetos, but not with a sore throat.

I Just Called To Say I Love You

I guess there is some big holiday coming up and it has something to do with love (or chocolate, or both). If you know me at all you know I LOVE my husband! Here is what I love about him:

• He loves God.
• He loves me.
• He is so great with the kids.
• He is so thoughtful.
• He is a great kisser!
• He is my best friend and I trust him more than I thought I could trust anyone.
• He is such a great provider.
• He still is the 11 year old I met in high school - I love how time has not made him mean or angry - just wiser.
• He helps around the house even after a long day at work.
• Family comes first.
• He puts up with me even when I really don't deserve it.

I could go on forever. Tell me what is special about your valentine.

I Miss You Like Crazy!

This is the first year we are not going to Florida in some form and I miss my mommy and daddy. This is my mom. At least I can talk to her every day and look at her picture!

Never Gonna Get It

Somewhere in someone's video library is a tape of girls singing this song on my Senior Class Trip. I never knew this song would come to mind for me in so many different venues of life. Not in the exact text of the song but the title itself that some people are just Never Gonna Get It.

Your Momma Don't Wear No Socks

My friend told me last night that the 'yo momma' jokes are going around it always brings this song that I learned my 10th grade year on biology trip to mind. Being a mother is so different than I planned on it being. I thought my kids would always look at me adoringly, that I would never get old, and that I would never say 'Just wait until you have a teenager!'. I love being a mom! Socks is an issue with my Ashley. She does not like to wear them and then her feet smell from her shoes and then we gently tell her that (make fun of her and make her wash her feet) and then the next morning - no socks again.
What battles did you pick with your parents? I was naive and always challenged my parents wisdom.

Hallelu - Praise ye the Lord!

Ashley got her results back and she has gastritis which is an infection that can be treated! I never thought I would be so happy about an infection but we have results it was all worth it and now we can move on!!! Yeah!!

What a Beautiful Morning!

I have begun to get older and now can not sleep in like I once was used to. Mornings are precious though. They are silent and still. I almost look forward to them until about 2 pm when I wish I could lay on the floor at the office and take a nap. : )

I Will Survive!

She went through it and her insides look great except her stomach. The dr. took biopsies so we will find out in a week or so but he thinks it is an infection. My poor girl went through so much. Children's hospital is amazing! Great experience there!

The Sun Will Come Out - Tomorrow

So the prep for Ashley has been horrific. She is nervous and sick and weak and drama, drama, drama. Please think of her today as she has her procedure at 1:15 pm. Thanks!