Have a Holly Jolly Christmas

So we have had a lovely Christmas. We were ALL together as last Monday we found out Ashley had mono and pneumonia and needed to stay home. After a week in the house she was able to go to the Chermak Christmas but was really worn out. The other two and myself now have colds but a good week to get better. What a blessing of time we have been given.

The Lord has let me learn to wait on Him and trust Him in all things once again. I know I may never end my learning curve. Excited to see what is next!

I Can Play the Background

I am definitely letting God lead right now. My baby is in physical pain over an emotional issue and we had to bring her to the ER last night to deal with the stomach pain caused by an ongoing problem. I have to know that God is in control and this will lead to His glory.

I don't have answers. I don't have questions either. I have faith. I can only lean right now. Only trust in Him. I know He will give me wisdom to make a decision that will cause problems but maybe it will also define the solution.

I am not getting in the way this time, I am playing the background.

Ring of Fire

I feel like I am walking through a ring of fire right now. There are things that I am not dealing with but if I looked at closely would hurt or make me anxious but instead I am walking through them. Not alone, mind you but with God, my Protector and the wonderful people He gave me to hold my hand through this time.

I never thought that I would be calm about such changes but know it is the Prince of Peace whose carrying me now.

I had a great night just chilling with a few friends that I could have let it all out with but it was fun to laugh and talk about our plans for Christmas and not cry, enough of that to come I believe and maybe not, maybe this peace will continue. I am very thankful for my friends, for my family, for my Lord.

Falling to Pieces

There are moments that I fall in love again with my Lord Jesus Christ. It is usually when I am so low I have to look up but I am always in awe of how much He gives for us, how much He loves us and how much He expects from us. He expects us to love like Him, walk like Him, and mostly glorify Him and I sometimes think that is crazy, some mornings I can't even comb my hair right, but that is the great thing, He does not expect us to do it alone. With His Holy Spirit, His Word, we can bring it all to where it belongs at His feet. We should be a reflection of Him and I am so glad that He expects me to do this and is walking along with me.

Sleigh Ride

My mood did change as I sat on the bus with a bunch of 6/7th graders and observed how much life is still the same in Jr. High, but that is another post.

I so enjoyed the concert today with Orchestra Hall filled with kids and how they all got quiet as the orchestra picked up their instruments and spoke to us through music. It was great! I watched one violinist who danced with her violin, or so it seemed. The kids actually enjoyed it although it may not be cool to admit it. What music does for the soul, it amazes me and by the second song my impatience with a few minor pains in my life were gone. I was thanking God for my hearing and my job as I was able to just shift my schedule to do a field trip with my son. I am so blessed. It just took a bus ride to Minneapolis to remember that.