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Recovery is going well, but will be a bit longer than I thought it would. They were able to take only the uterus laproscopicly and that was good. My 2 young ones started throwing up last night so I am hoping not to throw up too. Will check back in a few days - i am not supposed to be doing the stairs yet.

Today is the day

I think that the prep is going to bother me more than the surgery but I will be fine. My folks come in this morning. Gracie keeps saying 'Don't go' and it is breaking my heart a bit, but I should see them tomorrow. Nice having Steve home.

Christmas time is here...

I love the decorations that we got up and will love when Ashley gets home and the ornaments and twinkle lights for outside will go up then. It really has been a good Thanksgiving other than my Mikey having an asthma attack due to being in a house with cats too long. I did enjoy how relaxing these past few days have been and how loving my husband has been making me coffee every morning.

Tips on Teenagers

1. You will hate that they learn to roll their eyes after everything until you can not see them do it.
2. They need too much sleep, but even when they are 13 you will go in their room and watch them just as you did when they were a toddler.
3. They are always nicer for other people and soon you realize that is a GOOD thing.
4. They are often acting the same way you do so be careful how you respond to things.
5. Spend as much time as they will give you they grow up so fast.


It seems like yesterday I had a 6 year old, 1 1/2 year old and a preemie baby at Christmas and now I have a 13, 8 and 7 year old kids and it has flown by. A little nostalgic today, but this is fun. It is always fun to remember why you love who you love (esp. when they spent time in their rooms for hitting each other all night last night).

Happy Thanksgiving!

Need to vent!!

So, I know that you all know what a wonderful husband I have now so when I deal with my ex it is now even worse. He finally gave us flight info last night for her flight today only to find the tickets were not right and Steve needed to fix it once he got the airport - he is mad. The flight is late, not my ex's fault but I want to blame him. I wish Eric could just see how wonderful Ashley is and how loving she can be when she is loved. I know he has no clue how to love but I think it is about time he learns to overcome his past.
Lord,

Watch over my baby! I trust that You will be with her even though I can not! Love her and hold her when she needs it! Thank You!!

In Your Son's precious name,
AMEN

Reality

It is so much easier for me to be open with people when they actually are not there. I hate to really share my feelings because I just don't see them as all that important. I know if people ask they want to know but I have a hard time with this. Something for me to think about today.

Happy Birthday Gracie!

My baby turned 7 on Wednesday! We are having a party for her today and she has her friends coming over to play and eat cake. I can not believe that I have no preschoolers, no young kids anymore. This is why I steal other peoples kids and love on them until they cry or poop or both and give them back so I realize how much better it is to have the ages I have.:)

Stress

Silly
Time consuming
Really annoying
Emotion
So not needed
Sad

I am needing to breathe a bit. I will get all that I need to ready in due time and if it does not get done then I am not a failure. Just need to reassure myself! I have actually lost my appetite I am so bogged down. I know it will pass when I get really hungry or someone has cheetos, but I just want to feel normal and be in control.
Thanks internet for letting me vent! If anyone were to talk with me all I would do is cry and this is what I needed to get out at this moment. Yeah God for making ways to let it out!

I am all bunched up!

I did not think it would be appropriate to say panties in a bunch at the title. I don't know why. I am starting to get anxious and even though I took cough nightime medicine I am wired. I am starting to think about the book I am reading by John Piper, called Don't Waste Your Life. Not going to sleep thoughts. I am also dreaming of Christmas and how much I love this time of year and how I need to focus on that instead of what is to happen in 2 weeks.
My panties are now a bit less bunchy - maybe time for a smaller pair.;)

Christmas

We celebrated Thanksgiving and Christmas with the Johnson side yesterday and it was so fun and good! The food was delicious and of course I like the way my mom prepares everything so I am not so anxious to have Chermak Thanksgiving. Ashley will be in Texas for that and I hate it when she is gone anyway. Got some cute clothes and was able to give thoughtful gifts away. I love when money isn't a problem. Isn't always that way though. Looking forward to a full week but first Fallfest at church today. We all meet at Northwestern college for one big service and the two little ones are singing and it should be fun!

Crazy day!

I look towards the day and see that it is full. I am off to a field trip with Mikey and then have to return to work and then home to make supper and then to youth group. I know that it will be a good day and a day that I will look back and smile about but right now it seems too much. I do look forward to Saturday when we celebrate Thanksgiving/Christmas with my folks. I enjoy not have to split the holidays as my folks leave for Florida right after Thanksgiving and my dad and brother hunt at Thanksgiving so we celebrate early to fit it in comfortably.

Choir flashbacks

So, my head is full of songs today. Started with Joy, Joy, Joy.

Everything gonna' be alright
Gonna' be alright
Everything gonna' be alright
Gonna' be alright in Christ
Gonna' be alright in Christ
Gonna' be alright in Christ
Ba umm Chick chick (something like that)

It is giving that we receive,
It is pardoning that we are pardoned.
And it is dying that we are born
to eternal life.
Make me an instrument of thy peace.
I want to know what it's like to follow you-
When men look at me
I want them to see
The light of the world inside.

What's your favorite?

Monday, Monday

It seems like a strange day today. I don't know if it is the snow flurries or the fact that my kids have yet another cold, or that I am preparing to be off work for a month. It seems not real to me. I have a lot of stuff I want to get done but know that it all won't and that I will be ok with it. Just feeling odd! Not all that unusual.

Hymn sing

Our 30's and 40's something Sunday school class annually hosts the Seniors class for a hymn sing. This is the only time that I get up front and sing in front of people. My kids do to they will lead a few songs and last night they were so cute and LOUD! :) The words of the songs we sang last night are amazing and true! The King is Coming, How Great Thou Art, Amazing Grace, What a Friend We Have in Jesus, and In The Garden (my grandma's favorite). What a blessing to know He walks with me and He talks with me and He tells me I am His own!