Kung Fu Fighting

Just starting with title I am in a better mood but I need to vent, so if you don't want to hear my pity party please don't read. I feel like I am angry a lot about not having control over the circumstances I am in right now. Ready to fight, but for what. Taking it out on the wrong people, sorry, honey. My house is under construction as we are redoing a bathroom. My job is under construction as we look for a new youth pastor. My family is under construction as we look to new changes. I want to control something and as I type this I realize nothing is mine to control.

I know that God is in control. Just like the season change so will things in our lives but God will always be in control and not let us go through things He knows we can't handle. I am learning. Very slowly. Learning that I am still being molded, maturing, and it makes me more thirsty for things of God. That is the point to bask in His glow and then to reflect Him. I am getting it and letting go.

Love Me Tomorrow

I love this weather, not so much v-day stuff. I don't need a day to know I am loved and definately don't need more chocolate(love it though). I do need to hear that I am loved. The things you learn about yourself as you learn about your kids and the way they need to feel loved. Two of ours needs physical touch, whether wrestling, a pat on the head, or snuggling. One needs words of affirmation (me too!) and needs to hear we appreciate them. I am not huge on physical touch. I held these kids until they could walk. I thought that was enough, but even my 16 year old needs to rest on my shoulder now and again. I appreciate it so much more now and am so much more intentional about it as they will eventually leave the house.
Anyway, this day is beautiful weather wise and fun sugarwise and a good day. Thank you Lord for the good days.

Boom Boom Pow

I do like this song just not live in the middle of a game by the Packers. It was not fun to see that they don't sound like you think they should and then I wondered how much they got paid to do this song. It kinda made me sick.

Loved that the Packers won and that I had a fun night with my friends and ate too much and the salt made me sick even the next day. I am glad for that as it means I don't eat like that everyday. Still have a headache.

Liking how this week is starting. Really wish it was warmer! Someday!