Time Is On your Side

I am not so sure of this title. Today I was in the Principals office that I once was in 20 years ago for some cheerleading fiasco only now to be the mother of a High Schooler!!!

I am excited for age but sometimes I still feel like I am a teenager again. Friends do that to me, my hubby makes me feel young, even my kids do. Then I look in the mirror and I am really going to be 34 soon! It has been good so far!

Held

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.
Chorus: This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow. (Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
Bridge: If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?
(Chorus) This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

In the Garden

I come to the garden alone

While the dew is still on the roses

And the voice I hear, falling on my ear

The Son of God discloses

And He walks with me

And He talks with me

And He tells me I am His own

And the joy we share as we tarry there

None other has ever known

He speaks and the sound of His voice

Is so sweet the birds hush their singing

And the melody that He gave to me

Within my heart is ringing

And He walks with me

And He talks with me

And He tells me I am His own

And the joy we share as we tarry there

None other has ever known

I'd stay in the garden with Him

'Tho the night around me be falling

But He bids me go; through the voice of woe

His voice to me is calling

And He walks with me

And He talks with me

And He tells me I am His own

And the joy we share as we tarry there

None other has ever known

Feelings

I have many feelings today. I feel happy that my I got to spend time with my parents after a long winter without them. I feel sleepy - I think it is because I am old. I feel excited because I have the day off and get to do fun stuff with friends. I feel a bit anxious as we are going to deal with something a bit later today (pray if you would). I feel unmotivated as I don't want to clean. That's about all I have to say about that.

It is Well

On Friday I went to hymn sing with about ten 30-somethings plus kids and one hundred Seniors and it was wonderful. I hate tears in public but I have come to expect it now at hymn sings. The truth I hear, the hope of heaven, and the fact that we WILL face trials.

We ended with 'When We All Get to Heaven' and I was feeling really close to there already. I love to hear my kids sing the hymns and listen to the quartet. What a night.

He's Got the Whole World in His Hands

I am so thankful today that He is in control. Things are changing in my world. My kids are growing up, my health is a bit off again, my job is great but ever changing, my husband becomes more handsome every day while I get older every day. I have posted about change and that it is not my favorite thing but I know God is stretching me to make it something I may look forward to just as I look forward to the change in seasons or to see the moon every night.

I have this picture in my head of God holding not only my cares, my fears, my hopes, but my husband, myself, my children, my friends. I am letting Him have it all this morning not just my worries and fears, but yours too. If you have any specifics please comment so I can pray and others can throughout the day. He is in control! Hallelujah!

I Don't Want to Grow Up

Today all I want to do is sit in my bed and sleep. I never was like that as a kid. I got up at slumber parties and still do at unearthly hours but today I am like my 13 year old and just want to sleep.

It is my day off and I am running errands and having coffee with a friend so that will make it all worth while. I may even fit a nap in. :)

I will Remember You

This week I have encountered many people from my past. It is so hard to remember who they were as most of them are now wives, parents, adults in general. I get to thinking about how we once were and I think we all have changed but the parts that we all loved about each other are the same.

I sat in a cafe today with 4 other moms and wondered where the last 16 years went since high school. These women have been there for me through marriages, babies, losses, and surgeries. I hope the next 16 years I still get together with them and remember who we were and what brought us together and smile that we were young once and enjoy the age we have become like we did today. God is good! He has allowed me to have some great friends!

Thank you for giving to the Lord!

Today I went to the funeral of the founder of New Life, the school I attended from 6th grade to graduation, the place I met my husband, some of my best friends, and learned to the love the Lord more and more. It was surreal as my old choir director was up on stage singing and many faces of teachers and friends from the past were there also.

His two sons spoke about losing their dad and then they both went on to say that Christ was his life. He shared his faith with everyone. I remember many a choir concert listening to his Darth Vader voice as he gave the invitation.

My life would be very different without this man following his heart to start a church and school. I am challenged to thank people in life for what they have done. My prayers are for the family!

He so Fine!

So we stayed at the Water Street Inn last night. It was the Lumber Baron ten years ago when we stayed there for our first night as "The Chermaks". We stayed in the same room and after a wonderful dinner at Buca Di Beppo's he swept me off to our room which had rose petals all over and presents. He had it all set up and I had no clue and it was great! Then we walked around Stillwater this morning. It was so fun and I felt so young.

Did I ever tell anyone that I married such a great guy?

I've Been Waiting for a True Love's Kiss

I really love this movie Enchanted. It is full of innocence and fairy tales and makes fun of itself at the same time. My son didn't hate it either although it is a bit mushy and girly at parts.

I am very excited for my night of fun and surprises! I don't know where we are going tonight, but anywhere with Steve is fine!

It's Your Love

Steve and I will be celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary this Friday. He has plans to take me to dinner and somewhere for the night and I am very excited! I wish I could come up with some wonderful gift for him but I am falling short after he is planning so much.

I still believe that God was kind when he allowed Steve to fancy me and Ashley. He is a great father, a great friend, and much more...

The title of this is the song that I call 'our song'. Steve probably thinks some Beatles song or something along his taste is our song but if that is the only thing we disagree on that is o.k. : )

Give Me A Break!

I am so sick of the snow!! My kids loved it and I am sure I should cherish that but I want to have no more boots! No more wet clothes! No more missing one glove! No more scarfs or hats all over the house and in every vehicle! It is pretty, but today will be pretty messy!

The weekend is what I am looking towards right now - warmth!