I'll Be There For You

On Sunday night I went to my friends house for dinner. I have been friends with this lady for 22 years or more. We were talking and all of sudden she hums something and says 'Do you remember this song?'. I hum it back and said I would find the words for it on the internet, some old song we must have roller skated to or something. My son watched and said 'You two are really strange' and proceeded to make fun us by humming. I am excited to see him have the same interactions with his friends, when you don't have to say anything and you know what they are thinking or you hear something and you remember the time and you just bust out laughing.

I love that I still connect with friends I have had for more than 20 years. My husband is one of them. We met with 4 other life long friends on Saturday for dinner and so enjoyed food and conversations and relaxation. What a gorgeous evening!

Never was a twenty something with no kids meeting my friends at the coffee shop, but love that I still meet up with my friends and enjoy their company. God is so good!

Fifteen

I remember when life revolved around my homework, who I needed to talk to at school, what people thought of me, what I was wearing, were my bangs ratted high enough, did so and so like me, and basically could see nothing outside my life. Then why is it that I can't allow my daughter some slack and understand her egocentricness?

Now it drives me crazy! I can't seem to relate to thinking about only myself, I get crabby and want her to fast forward to my reality and then stop take a deep breath, apologize for yelling, and realize soon enough she will see things in this way.

(I really like Taylor Swift music. This is another one of her songs.)

Love is a Battlefield

I have been thinking about a friend who is starting the divorce process and remember when I was in those shoes, those poor, ill fitting, bright neon orange shoes and everyone had an opinion and everyone wanted the whole sordid story and praying for my friend.

I often wonder when it is that you decide it is just over. I decided after girlfriend #3. That actually wasn't the reason I left but contributed to the whole lousy scene. Do people actually just fall out of love? I can't imagine making a choice to love someone and then just decide to not love them anymore.

Society is not helpful with this problem. Most shows, celebrities and such make divorce so easy, so accessible, so drama free. You go to a judge sign some papers and *boom* you are magically unattached, which is never true.

Pray with me that families stay together, that people cherish their vows. I know that my crabbiness or lack of appeal probably gives Steve some cause to think about it, but know he is with me for the long haul. God wants us to stay together for the good of us and that should be reason enough.

Don't Stop Believing - Hold on to that Feeling

So, I thought it would be fun to go and sleepover at a friends house as her hubby was out of town and she only had 2 of her 4 kids. Well, back in the day I could fall asleep anywhere and didn't need a lot of sleep and could eat non nutritious food and get up early and have energy and function the next day. Not so much anymore.
I had a good time and was glad to talk, laugh, and be tired. Lots of coffee was needed. I am so glad my kids sleep until 8 am or longer on weekends (these kids got up at 6 am, so did I). I am so glad that I missed everyone and ready to be back with my kids and my hubby and my house.
I keep holding on to this notion that I really am not that old or maybe it is just that I have not aged mentally (matured?). I still want have fun and laugh and giggle with my friends, make out with my hubby, run and play tags with my kids as if I am one of them. Mental aging will happen eventually, but not today.

How Will I Know...

I often wonder if working with the youth is where I am called to be. There is so much energy and thought that has to go into it and if you make a mistake it could be long term. But there is much fun and that is why I loved youth group as a youth and still do.

I got to know so many Christ centered, funny, happy, strange, moody, wanna be rebels, lonely, those searching for Crazy Love, and new kids this weekend. God is good and working in the next generation even when they can't wait to shoot me in the squirt gun game!

I Wish I was a Little Bit Taller, I Wish I was a Baller...

Sometimes the titles date me but oh well. I wish I had mad skills in something great. I am not great at one thing. I am adequate at some things but not great. My hubby has skills and he is great at helping people and fixing things and getting it done. I can just dream about it getting done. I do wish I was taller too, but that is not as important or realistic.

Routine is back and I am not sure I am going to do well until I remember what I have to do. We have added 20 things to our September calendar and so far I have not forgotten one of them, granted it is only Sept. 7 and I almost forgot something yesterday. So here we go!

...I'm Loving it!

This weather is awesome. The kids jumping into routine has been great. Fall, apple orchards, sweaters, cool nights, colors, so much to enjoy and yes we have been to the fair twice, still thinking about Monday, but not sure.