I feel as that is how you could sum up my year. I am having a bad moment and just feel like I can not stay on top of my health. I finally got over my side pain or almost, and then I fell and have a concussion. Most just laugh it off and really don't understand that I hate not being able to truly process things and have a constant headache, but I am sure since I am a not very smart girl they have a right to laugh. I am now starting my maybe 3rd cold this season. I am having a terrible, no-good, very bad moment right now.
I am off to see "Sleigh Ride" at Orchestra Hall and will enjoy that with my son's class. I just need to gain perspective. Not look at life so one dimensionally and know that this too shall pass and God is in control and wants me to be humbly at His feet.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Let Them Be Little
After a wonderful slip on the ice skating rink that was the Twin Cities, I landed on my head. I have a concussion but am fine but this post will definately be a bit random.
I look at my friends and hope that they enjoy each screaming, whining, needy minute that their babies to 7 year olds give them. My kids still need me but sometimes in a way that I need my husband and that is just to love them and make sure they know that won't change. I don't miss the diapers, the 3 am feedings (although my kids get up a lot), the constant touch of the children or them not being able to tell me exactly what they need. But I do miss the unspoken communication, them snuggling so much more, watching them sleep (really don't miss the diapers).
I do love the age they are at and how they are becoming such fun people. God makes us all unique even in a family unit.
I mainly need to let go of my oldest baby for Christmas once again and am having a hard time with it. I didn't really expect it this year but know that she so wants to go. I need to be happy. I need to GIVE her the freedom to be happy about it although everytime I hear 'I'll be home for Christmas' I will cry. I need to let her know I love her no matter what. Not that hard to do as I do love her no matter what just need to let my head heal a bit before we bring it up again, I get more weepy with the headache I have.
God is good and will make this Christmas and all times, a time of growing. I trust that!
I look at my friends and hope that they enjoy each screaming, whining, needy minute that their babies to 7 year olds give them. My kids still need me but sometimes in a way that I need my husband and that is just to love them and make sure they know that won't change. I don't miss the diapers, the 3 am feedings (although my kids get up a lot), the constant touch of the children or them not being able to tell me exactly what they need. But I do miss the unspoken communication, them snuggling so much more, watching them sleep (really don't miss the diapers).
I do love the age they are at and how they are becoming such fun people. God makes us all unique even in a family unit.
I mainly need to let go of my oldest baby for Christmas once again and am having a hard time with it. I didn't really expect it this year but know that she so wants to go. I need to be happy. I need to GIVE her the freedom to be happy about it although everytime I hear 'I'll be home for Christmas' I will cry. I need to let her know I love her no matter what. Not that hard to do as I do love her no matter what just need to let my head heal a bit before we bring it up again, I get more weepy with the headache I have.
God is good and will make this Christmas and all times, a time of growing. I trust that!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Give it Away, Give it Away, Give it away now
I think the thing I most am unwilling to give is time. I like my time. I want to keep it safe and for family and myself. Sometimes I am not even willing to share it with God, how selfish. Time to listen to people, pray for people, cry with people (God is working on this one a lot with me this year) and encourage people. I want to know in my head and heart that this time wasn't about me feeling comfortable, for life to be easy or about me, it is to glorify God and the only way I can do that is by giving away my time for Him.
Right now my time is with sick kids or I would type more. Off to see if they are ok! Strep should be no longer alive in my house soon!
Right now my time is with sick kids or I would type more. Off to see if they are ok! Strep should be no longer alive in my house soon!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Happy Happy Birthday Baby!
My baby turned double digits. I no longer have a single digit kid. I just got used to having a 16 year old and now I have to get used to being the mom of a 16, 11, and 10 year old. Crazy how fast it went!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Give Thanks with a Grateful Heart - 30 Day Giving Challenge
I got started on this challenge late and they are already on Day 15. My hubby is great at giving, whether time, talent or money, he is always giving and I am learning from him. So far the only charity that we are working on is Feed My Starving Children and Operation Christmas Child all the rest is people we know. That is how Steve does it, find a need and help where we can.
Yesterday at church we talked with some people and found out they are having a hard time, having to sell their home they just moved into so that they can make it. They have no idea where they are moving to but they know God is in charge. Moments like these I wish we made loads of money but it would never be ours as we would love to be there for all who are hurting.
We also have a family member who is on his second year of unemployment and many troubles with their house and so on. What can we do? I am not always sure. We can pray, we can give what we can, we can show love and support. I want to do more.
Life is rough for so many in this economy. Just last spring Steve was down to half time work and now he is so busy and I NEED to be thankful. It is required of me. This I must remember and to give what has never been mine. All I have is God's and I need to remember that.
Yesterday at church we talked with some people and found out they are having a hard time, having to sell their home they just moved into so that they can make it. They have no idea where they are moving to but they know God is in charge. Moments like these I wish we made loads of money but it would never be ours as we would love to be there for all who are hurting.
We also have a family member who is on his second year of unemployment and many troubles with their house and so on. What can we do? I am not always sure. We can pray, we can give what we can, we can show love and support. I want to do more.
Life is rough for so many in this economy. Just last spring Steve was down to half time work and now he is so busy and I NEED to be thankful. It is required of me. This I must remember and to give what has never been mine. All I have is God's and I need to remember that.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Blessed Be the Name
What a great hymn! What a great honor to sing about the Lord! What a blessing to know He is in control and will bring things to His glory in His time! Trusting in Him today!
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