Daylight is Coming

First, I want the sunshine again, but the title refers to the wonderful band we had at Districts in Duluth with 2900 youth. The band was called Remedy Drive and they were certainly entertaining!

I realized that I am not made for leadership of 48 youth, but God thought I should be this weekend and it worked out and He was still glorified!

I learned some things, like:

• Boys really need a man as a leader.
• Girls go to the bathroom a lot and can not sit through an hour and a half session.
• I need to expect more from the kids and they will usually meet the challenge (they did, they were really good!)
• A little understanding goes a long way.
• I need at least 5 hours of sleep a night! (still trying to catch up!)
• The Cheese ball lady was so funny and informative! (www.keepyourpantson.org)
• I can give everything and God will replenish me!

Overall, a good experience in a tough situation. Praying for our youth pastor whose mom went Home last Friday, one hour before we left for the conference. The funeral is this weekend.

Things Left Unsaid

I decided that I needed to give my testimony at the church meeting on Sunday night and left a few things unsaid. So here is the ending...

I do know that God works all things out for good even when it hurts to learn why. I love how I have needed to walk in others shoes to really understand and be able to empathize with them and then hopefully show God's love.

I have come to see unconditional love in human form from my husband, Steve, who loves me despite who I was and sees the best in who I am now. My 3 kids show me God's grace. They show me innocence, the need to learn and love more, the desire to be better, the need to have fun and how to really love people through the good and the bad.

I have been honored by my church to partner in the spiritual maturity of my children and myself. Two of my children have come to know Christ with the help of the teachers and the leadership of a great children's Pastor. My oldest has learned to walk with the Lord through many things with the direction of my youth Pastor and his wife and our current interim Pastor. The love that the people of my church have shown in the last six years shows me Christ's love.

I am always searching for answers that God provides in His time and realize that when I look through His eyes everything is clear. I pray that I can be used daily for His glory.

*If you see a theme my passion is to love like Christ, unselfishly, willing to lay my life down. I fail sometimes before I even get out of the house, but I am constantly walking with that goal and hoping that it is shown even when I am crabby, whiny or self involved. A work in progress just like my testimony will be, but I am excited to see the outcome.

Wanna Talk About Me

I have been so self involved lately. Oh poor Brenda, life's so hard! I have not seen outside myself to realize that many other people are dealing with way more than me, for much longer and need support, love and understanding. I almost feel like I have been numb for the last three weeks. Walking around, doing life and not feeling anything. I have not been depressed or too anxious (maybe getting anxious).



I do believe that world is so affected by the weather. It is something we all have in common and most of us need to see sunshine and warmth after a long winter. I see so much more positive attitudes around me.



My goal now is to focus on the other people that God has put in my life and to help when I can. To figure out what I can do with what comes my way daily and not do any long-term planning as it only gets complicated. To be happy that I have a healthy family, a home and lots of love. To be thankful everyday!

The Old Rugged Cross

My heart breaks when I hear the nails that were pound because of my sins. I am so blessed but for no other reason than His love, nothing I do can make me whole, can cover my sins.
Hallelujah to the Christ who came so I can be forgiven and not have to 'do' the sacrifice for my sins, because He is the sacrifice. Hallelujah that He is Risen!!!

If I Had a Million Dollars

What would you do with a million dollars? Right now stay sane, but really I would love to be able to help out friends who are desperate, be debt free, buy clothes for my kids anytime they needed it, and give a lot away. Really it might be harder, more greatness in anything means more responsibility.

No money won't buy me happiness but sure would make things easier. I am so glad I don't have to make the money decisions and that Steve is so great at that.

Other thoughts are I am getting old, can money buy more brain power? I am so random and not able to remember things but I can't wait until my 35th birthday! May, here I come and sun and warmth! Yeah summer!