I'm Still Standing

Just really in a good place in the midst of what seems like a storm in my life. Constant winds of change and these are few reasons I stay sane...

Where the Stars and Stripes and the Eagle Fly

I know that this country has it's many flaws but we have some great freedoms. One, I get to worship my God in public, not in secret. Two, I get raise my kids to love Jesus and don't have to have a government tell me how to raise them. Three, I can disagree with my government and not be persecuted, put in jail or killed for my opinion, particularly as a woman this is great.
I could go on and I am sure there are those that disagree with me, but this is how I feel about our country. I don't think it is chosen or set apart from any other country but I am glad for it's freedoms that I have. I am blessed by those who have served to keep those freedoms and protected us from those who would want to take them away or make us all one people that are superior in their opinion. I am thankful and blessed and off to picnic on this Memorial Day.

These are few of my Favorite Things

If Oprah can do it so can I. I think our things will differ. :)

* I love my room and often hide watching something on my computer.
* I love people watching (State Fair being my fave).
* I love being alone in a crowd.
* I have enjoyed having people over again and having fun. This is an on and off again favorite as I grow older and less wanting to be vulnerable with people.
* I love my kids. This stage has been great but I am getting teary talking about this being the last year before my oldest goes to college away from home.
* I love my husband, every day, more and more. I love how he is aging and maturing and watching him see where God is calling him. I love it.

Right now these are my faves. When they change you may see a new list.

RESPECT

I LOVE to SING! I am not the best but I love it. I wish I had that voice that could go all out but I don't and this is something I just know and don't feel bad about. I wonder why I am so hard on myself in other ways. I can't just accept who I am and my short comings in so many ways(ok I don't mean I can't accept that I am short, but my flaws.).
God has been working in my life and showing me how to be humble, how to be broken, how to let go. Hard stuff. I don't like the hard stuff. Can someone tell me how to move on from failure? How to just really let it go, let it stay in the past where it belongs?

Isn't She Lovely

Roam if You Want To

I have only done a few crazy spontaneous things in my life. To some my life has been a series of crazy but it is actually kind of mild. I want to do something crazy. (not mentally crazy or anything)

I want to go on a roadtrip with girlfriends or try something new or see something I haven't seen before. I want to go dancing with my husband, sing in front of people, stay up late and not get tired, go to a play, watch the stars, many many thoughts right now.

I know that this feeling will pass and hopefully my stone will too. I just like to dream sometimes. I think it is fun and dreaming is often enough for me.

There Goes My Life

What a difference 16 years make. This is a country song and it speaks to me. I never thought having my daughter so young was the end of my life but the beginning but now it is getting tougher to let go. A friend of mine had a picture from her spring break that is very much like the one here and had the same thought Steve and I had, how fast they grow up.