Keep Holding On

What would it be like to live in a fairy tale? I think that I do live in one. I am a princess, treated really well by all who live with me. We always get along. We never yell or fight or cry. Ok I am on pain meds and this not true but close.

I went to a Sunday school class with Ashley that talked about mothers and daughters. One thing that was brought up was talking things out. This is one thing Ashley and I and Steve have done well with this year. We are very open and no topic is off limits. We may have to take a break and get back to it but it has really helped. We do fight and get on each others nerves and then I get a stone or 11 and everybody gets on my nerves. Right now I am in SO MUCH PAIN.

Anywho, my lovely people have been great or at least that is how I am seeing it. :)

Love's The Only House Big Enough for all the Pain in the World

I have been unsettled lately. I have wondered why when I have been blessed with so much. I have a great God, family, friends, health, enough money, time and a job. I have this feeling that I don't feel too often, this heaviness.

I figured it out a few days ago. I have talked about how one of my passions is to love like Christ and my fellow Christians usually agree with me. My problem is the lack of practice. There are so many people that are waiting to see Christ in others. To just have them talk to them, to invite them to coffee or dinner, to bake them cookies or send them a card. I do NOT do it enough so this is not a rant about anyone in particular just something I have been pondering and praying on and trying to change in myself. To love and live like Christ who accepts everyone, not just the ones who have the kids the same age as me, or kids that I enjoy for that matter. Not just the people who have the same interests or personality disorders that I have. Not just the ones who love Christ or show love easily.

I see so many people hurting because we forget to say 'hi' to them in the mall or the store or the hallway at Church. I admit to having looked forward to seeing my 'friends' at church and there are many that I have over more often than others. You can't be friends with everyone, my mom would say, which is true, but we can be loving to everyone. I need to work on this.

Suddenly I See

This weekend we chose to see our former Interim Senior Pastor at his church that he is filling in for and the sermon and the people and the experience was exactly what we all needed. Not that I need another church but it is great to feel connected to the family of God outside of the building that I attend for church. Learned about Habakkuk and some really pressing answers to questions I have been wrestling with this year. Ashley got to see a friend who is going through a tough time and be an encouragement. I got to see a friend I have been wanting to connect with again for about 20 years and it felt like we just saw each other the day before. It was so good.

There are not many times that I think 'wow, it is all coming together' but this was a good moment, an ochrestrated moment by God I believe.

Pinch Me

So, my 11 year old threw a fit the other day. Something did not go her way and I could not believe that she was doing that and then I said to my husband, 'She learned that from me'. I usually end my tantrums with 'I'm done'. I NEED TO WORK ON SELF-CONTROL! This is the year to be more calm, silent, think before I speak. I will do it and then when I blog about this again - please feel free to pinch me. ;)