Cryin over You

I was at the library the other day and a little boy was crying and this mentally underdeveloped lady was so concerned. She so wanted to fix it and kept saying 'You're OK boy? You're OK!' The mom of the boy stated he was OK and the mom of the lady stated it too but she was not so sure. Her heart to care so much and want to make this boy feel OK was overwhelming and convicting. How many times can I tell that someone is not having a good day but really don't have the time, energy, sometimes even thought process to try and help. To even acknowledge the need for help or need for a friend. Another thing to work on.

I have a list of things that I have done wrong in the past couple weeks, whether at my work, with my friends and family or in my home. I am an encourager by nature to everyone else but not to myself. I forget that and it gets easier to forget when all I am reminded of is the bad. Just a little gray day today but the sun will come out again, it has to right?

Way Out Here

I love being at my cabin where the phone doesn't really ring and I am with family and less stressed. I hope to get up one more time this fall but it seems less and less likely as the weekends fill up.

No More Games

I am through with waiting on people to change. I need to realize that sometimes they won't change, can't change, don't even know they should change. I need to change that I get so fussy that they are who they are and accept that and move on.

My mouth has gotten me into trouble AGAIN. I have apologized to those who need to be and yet there is still this unresolved feeling in my heart that I need to ignore right now. I can't fix this not this time but for awhile my approach will be to be silent and still. Keep my mouth shut and hopefully learn to open it only when beneficial to all involved.

Happy Birthday Sweet Sixteen!

It has taken me a bit to post this one. I am so happy my baby is growing to love the Lord and she now is a legal driver, but this is hard to say out loud. I have a 16 year old. What?!?

She had a great summer of ministry, friends, and on and off the boy she is standing with in the first picture.

She still loves her daddy, papa, nana, and mom, loves her brother and sister and still plays with them and overall is everything you want you in a kid but the time has gone by so fast. I don't want to miss a thing!

According to You

I must admit that I love secular music. I listen to just about any radio station out there for about 2 minutes at a time. I am a channel surfing which can be annoying but if I like a song it will stay on it for the duration. I love this song. It is about a girl who is in a relationship with someone who does not appreciate her and finds a guy who does. When it gets to the part for 'according to him' my mind changes it to 'according to Him'. I know the world sees me with all my flaws and really there are so many times I am the unappreciative boyfriend but according to God I am beautiful and He can't get me out of His head.
I need to remember that so that on the days which are more than not that I feel that I am worthless, He doesn't. I am just at low point to bring glory to Him, to find Him, to release my fears and insecurities to Him.

Circle of Friends

In a circle of friends
We have one Father
In a circle of friends
We share this prayer
That every orphaned soul will know
And all will enter in
To the shelter of this circle of friends.

I don't actually know this song but the chorus looks great. I have been thinking about friendships and family in the eyes of God lately. I tend to look at those who are close friends as chosen family.

I have noticed a pattern in my church lately and I am sure it will always exist on some level now I just need to figure out how to fix it or not be a part of it. I have noticed that people go to my church and are a part of my 'family' and they are very lonely. People who have not been invited to my house but I talk to regularly is just not right. My Pastor said a few weeks ago that you can't be friends with everyone and I actually had to think on that and was so satisfied that it was true. BUT, I can do better. I can see the need for others to fellowship and to feel loved. I can actually do something about that. Maybe my gift is hospitality. I need to work on this one.

Hey Steven!

This is a song from Taylor Swift that I love. And, yes, I love this man! "Can't help it if there's no one else, ooo, I can't help myself!"

He has been so good to me and shown Christ in so many ways! What a man!