That's Why Praise Him, That's Why We Sing

I am so amazed by the power of God. He pulls things together in a way I would never dream of. He gives us time and space to be still and Know Him. He gives us resources to meet our needs. He gives us other people to help when we can no longer help ourselves.

I have had to learn to lean on people and yet have not yet learned to be vunerable around them. I would prefer if I never cried in front another person, but I also would prefer to never have a reason to cry. Unrealistic of course but a wish.

I am feeling the power of prayer. I now see hope and know that I don't have to be in control, that there is someone else in charge. I am happy to see my baby girl sees that God has a plan and is starting to look Up.

Remember When

I am so searching right now for answers and I know the right Book to read but there is not a clear cut solution to this one. I wonder if you ever can truly forgive yourself for something that has life long consequences. I am waiting to get past the pain and move to the knowledge that I always get to that God is in control and He has a purpose and I need to trust Him. It may take awhile this time.

My heart breaks to see people in pain, to see people cry and suffer. I want to take it all away, but realize I can't. God can hold them while I hold them in prayer. I wish I could do more.

To love someone the way they want to be loved by someone else, to give them knowledge that only God can fill the void and make them whole, no person will ever do that and no person can take that away. To watch, waiting on the Lord and knowing He is good and will follow through with His promises. Patience, prayer, hope...

Good Times

We just enjoyed a family week with my parents, lots of driving and some sun. It is so hard to drive back home and it keeps getting colder. We went to the State Fair, Edison/Ford Winter Homes, stayed in Naples a night, rode Airboats in the Everglades, swam at my parents pool a lot, did a bunch of homework, ate wonderful food from Nana, went to the beach and St. Pete Pier, and just got away from it all.

I forget vacations are also about reconnecting and removing yourself from the daily grind. I was much more calm on this trip. What great times, I am ready to get back to my bed though. : )

Arms of Love

(This is an old school Amy Grant song that fits me - I need to stay safe even in the blue sky!)

Lord I’m really glad you’re here.
I hope you feel the same when you see all my fear,
And how I fail,
I fall sometimes.
It’s hard to walk on shifting sand.
I miss the rock, and find there’s nowhere left to stand;
I start to cry.
Lord, please help me raise my hands so you can pick me up.
Hold me close,
Hold me tighter.
I have found a place where I can hide.
It’s safe inside
Your arms of love.
Like a child who’s helped throughout a storm,
You keep me warm
In your arms of love.
Storms will come and storms will go.
Wonder just how many storms it takes until
I finally know
You’re here always.
Even when my skies are far from gray,I can stay;
Teach me to stay there,
In the place I’ve found where I can hide.
It’s safe inside
Your arms of love.
Like a child who’s helped throughout a storm,
You keep me warm
In your arms of love.

It's the Final Countdown

It is Feb. 2 and 10 more days until we leave for Florida! This winter has been so long! I am excited to see my parents and spend time rushing to the beach, to the pool and drive around in the golf cart instead of rushing to work, rushing to school and driving in my car.

I believe we will all be healthy by then as everyone is sick this week except Gracie and I.

Finally, It Happened to Me

I feel better today. Still a bit of pain on the right side but not constant and not as sharp!!! YEA!
It is amazing how my mood has changed and how I feel ok for whining for a bit. It really was painful for the past 4 months but I am so glad I kept pushing to fix it.

I am home from church today with my Mikey who is sick. My challenge to myself for this week is to be still more often and hear God. I need direction and I know He will show me the way.