I'm on the Edge of Glory

I feel different today. I don't know if it is just the weather or the fact that I feel settled or the fact that my kids are doing so well at school or I decided to be in a good mood or I have spent more time with the Lord. I am sure it is a combo of all of the above. What a good day! What a new place to be.

Loving it.

So here is what has been up that I have not shared. My kids go to the BEST SCHOOL EVER, their words. I became a soccer mom, Mike loves it. I have a Spoon as a daughter, excited for Beauty and the Beast. Ash is loving college life. I can handle 5 days of work a week as long as there is coffee. :)

Turn, Turn, Turn

If I were to be totally honest about what is going on in my life I would laugh as I type it. My life is great. I have 3 kids who love their school and love the Lord, a husband who loves God and me and is working. No sickness, no cancer, no real problems, except me. Me accepting the place I am right now is my only problem. Stupid, huh?

I am what I call in Humbleville. I am eating, breathing, sleeping humble pie. It is supposed to be character building I hear. I guess it is. To be dropped, not good enough, replaced and discarded is hard. To have 600 people see it happen is harder. To know that my God loves me and thinks that I am good enough to show His Light, I know it will all be ok. I just need to heal, time I want it to speed up.

The Dog Days are Over

I am hoping that I feel like the beginning of my new job will make me feel that there is closure with my old one. I am sort of understanding that there will be questions that I don't want to have answers. I know this is the right choice but it still is a struggle to get excited that all this happened. Maybe I don't need to be excited, maybe I just need to move forward and not look back. Understand that this new adventure is what is needed now for my family, for my church family, for His Glory.

Struggling is my problem, stress is my condition, anger is my enemy.

Hot Fun in the Summertime

Love the MN State Fair. Enjoy each moment of it and the last few days of summer spent with my kids. I truly like that it is a normal part of life as the next week was going to be new to us all. Feel so Blessed!

That's the Way Love Goes

My husband is so supportive. He has had to put up with a lot this year. The physical pain last year was much easier to deal with than the stress of this year. He has made me trust him more, love him more, and look to him more for advice. He has taught me to understand that we are partners in life not just in the house but for this time in the world. What a feeling!

Never Say Goodbye

Big changes for us here at the Chermak house. My kids are at new schools, I got a new job - Big things. I am not ready to say goodbye.

They Will Know We are Christians by our Love

I hate generalizations. I hate when people categorize a group as all the same. I don't know anyone who is exactly like another person. Each of us thinks independently. I do like this hope for Christians that they will know us by our love.
Many people think Christians are more judgemental or rigid or even broken. They see us as those who fear to look as they fail and I am sure many Christians don't want to fail. We do. Often. It is how we deal with our mistakes that determine if we are truly loving like Christ or just going through the motions.
I am in the midst of dealing with a mistake of my own in my Christian community. I am not sure my reaction is well, but with Steve's guidance I am sure it is better than I worry it is. We are taught to love, but we don't always listen. We are taught to talk things out, be honest, be fair, but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way.
I wish "they" were all wrong when they speak in broad terms about people who love Christ. I wish I could prove them wrong more often, wrong motive I know, but we are often flawed. Sin does that sometimes.