These Thousand Hills

I have this tape from high school . Our car still has a tape deck so I play it sometimes. It is 'Jacob's Trouble'. I really like this group and my daughter thinks they are old fashioned but when she listens she gets why I like it. Whenever I play it I think of the boy from high school who got me interested in alternative Christian music. The boy, or man now, who just lost his wife. I pray that he still listens to them. I listened to his band on MySpace and could not believe that I still had a MySpace account. He wrote songs to his daughter who died, my heart breaks for him. My brother in law lost his first wife and we talk about her sometimes. He still wonders why she died so young. These thoughts, these emotions are not easy to sort out. I know God is in control and He does things to His glory, but wish He would write on the wall and tell people why. I know that is what faith is, to believe in things we can not see, can not understand, but some people have it so much harder than me. I really was in a low place due to life changes and my need to be happy, satisfied, needed, the list goes on. I have perspective now.

If I Die Young

Today I learned of a friend I had in high school who lost his wife on Saturday due to a stroke. I heard the news and time stood still. She was at Mayo Clinic getting other procedures done and had a migraine and died. She just turned 36. I am in shock, in pain for him, in denial that it could happen at any moment. I pray that I spend my time being intentional with what God has given me. I pray I cherish the people in my life, the time I have with them and not take one second for granted. I pray that this thought doesn't just pass me by and I forget what I have, what I have been given.

House that Built Me

We had such a great week with no drama, no real fights, no work interruptions, no sickness, nothing but fun and relaxation and sore feet. We loved being together but as I watched my kids run up the steps to school I know that they were happy to share where they have been and to get away from each other.
I came home and LOVE my house!!! It is huge compared to the truck and the hotel room shared by 5 people. I am happy to be home, happy for the memories and happy that God is in control of things to come!

This world has nothing for me, I will follow You

When I get this right and make it all about Him everything is ok, everything has a purpose, everything is right in the world.

Lord,
Help me to remember it is not about me or the things of this world but only about You.
I ask this in Jesus' name,
AMEN

Love Lifted Me

I was sinking deep in sin, far from the peaceful shore,
Very deeply stained within, sinking to rise no more,
But the Master of the sea heard my despairing cry,
From the waters lifted me, now safe am I.
Love lifted me!
Love lifted me!
When nothing else could help,
Love lifted me!
All my heart to Him I give, ever to Him I’ll cling,
In His blessed presence live, ever His praises sing,
Love so mighty and so true, merits my soul’s best songs,
Faithful, loving service, too, to Him belongs.
Souls in danger, look above, Jesus completely saves,
He will lift you by His love, out of the angry waves.
He’s the Master of the sea, billows His will obey,
He your Savior wants to be, be saved today.