Oops There Goes Another Rubber Tree Plant

That song is in my head because I am going to grow one, strange huh? I am ready to have time off with my family and just not deal with anything! God is good!

Happy Days

Summer is speeding by but we have had many happy days and hopefully more to come. We are pretty sure we know what the pain source was/is and we have on more round of shots scheduled for next Wednesday and hopefully a pain free rest of the summer after the shot healing!

My oldest heads to her second year to New Orleans for a missions trip and what a journey God is bringing her on this summer. I pray she sees His plan and hears His voice.

My youngest is changing into a young lady and less of a little girl and I am not ready for that yet but love that she still loves to snuggle.

My son is changing and had his first moment of sadness and not knowing why. I did not know boys had mood changes like that but I am learning and love that he still wants me around.

Steve has had work!!!! Yeah!!! God is good all the time and His timing is perfect and He is still teaching me that patience is something that comes with maturity and good things are worth the wait!

So overall life is back to normal. I am sure the next thing that happens will seem tremendous and it may be but I will look back at the last 3 months of unanswered pain and realize that it made me search for Him more, rely on people more and made my family stronger. The purpose is worth the pain!

Tears On My Pillow

WHAT A DOWNER I AM!!! I have been crying since last night since the pain hit full on again. I know I should not let it get me down the way I am letting it and then I feel bad about that. I see God's work in this and know that it could be so much worse and then feel bad about that. See the pattern and why the tears won't stop!

I will sing unto the Lord! Music always makes me feel better. I just hope I don't bug the people around while I try to cheer myself up! :)

It's My Perogative

I am enjoying seeing my kids grow into themselves and become people. They are not just parroting Steve or myself but they have real likes and dislikes and even though watching them grow up seems so wrong at times, they should stay little, it is sure an incredible journey.

It's Too Late to Apologize

I need to make a public apology. I am so sorry that I have not let people in. I have been so depressed and have been relying on my Father and my hubby and a few, very few people in my life but I have not been doing what I should and allow you all to use the wonderful gifts God has given you and be there for me. I feel so alone and it is my fault. I know I am not and I have many offers of people to sit and look at the tv with me but I have said no because who wants to hang out with Brenda Boring.

I am sorry and hope to not pass up another opportunity.