This week has been hard and the memories it has brought up have been hard. Death is never easy. I need to deal with it. I need to come to terms with it, but it also brings up coming to terms with my past.
My roommate from college died. I went through my messages with her in the last 15 years and found that we made peace and I never told her whole truths but we were moms walking through life. We had a common ground. I can't believe she is gone and yet glad she is not suffering anymore. Praying for her family and glad I was so forgiving years ago and that we reconnected. I have a few relationships that are strained right now and if these people were to go how would I feel? I am not sure. Asking God's guidance on this one.
My husband shared something with one of my kids today that I do not like. It was about me and somewhat in defense of me but a truth I hate. I truth I don't want in my life. How do I deal with that? I am not sure. Giving it to God. Forgiving myself. Letting it go. I will tell how that is working later.
