Love Changes Everything

I am in a funk.  Probably why I feel like blogging.  Need to release some thought without disturbing those around me.  This is a strange feeling.  My husband thinks it is the weather which I am sure is a factor.  I just don't 'feel' a lot of anything right now.  Not sadness, but not joy.

I now feel again.  I know I have not let people in lately.  I have connected and reached out but I am not telling people the truth about how I feel, even Steve.  Not because he doesn't care, not because I am angry or sad, but because of fear.  Fear that people will leave me if I am real with them.  Nothing to do
with people I know now, all about what is inside of me.  I hate that part of me.  The part I have not dealt with, the part I don't remember or deal with or need to deal with, the past is the past and that is where it belongs.

Christ loves shows me that I can trust Him and He gave me the people in my life and from this moment after I type I will trust them.  This is why I blog to find the truth in my frustration.  Good things.