Be Careful Little Ears What You Hear

So I love music.  I really love most kinds of music and do not pay much attention to who is singing or sometimes words (oops!).  I have learned some info that I do not know if it is true or not but now understand that I need to be a bit more informed about what I am listening to. 
Most people in the world are not going to think like me or believe what I believe.  I need to live with them and that fact.  I am sure what I read on the internet could be true or very well be a lie but I need to have these conversations with my kids and help them to understand not to idolize people.  I never did that as a kid.  The singers I really liked I never learned about their families. I did not know what they thought was cool and I think I am teaching my kids to look away a bit too.
The artist I am talking about is Beyonce.  I love her voice.  I think she is very pretty.  I know she is very wealthy, but I think she may be into things that I should never associate with so she is off my play list.  Lesson learned.

Manic Monday

What a strange day! Can not believe that I have such a strange life more to come...

Mary, Did You Know?

This is one of those songs that gives me chills.  To be able to relate to someone that held a baby, who is my Savior, the Savior of the world - amazing.  I wonder if like me she felt very unworthy.

That is my day today.  I know this is feeling not from God but I feel like I am failing as a wife, mother, Christ-follower, and many things.  I have gone to the Word and the first thing I read was the Proverbs woman.  Now that did not help as I will never be like that, if you find a woman like that she should share how she does it with us all.  I then read my Proverbs for the day and saw how I needed to think, to think of things eternal, not things of this world.  I know that I will get over this feeling.  I know I am fighting things not of this world. 

Just like Mary, I have no idea the impact I have on this world or my children have on this world and will rest in the fact that God has a purpose for me, this I know, that He loves me.

Does Anybody Hear her?

So we begin the month of thankfulness.  I listened to this song today and am so thankful that I have been where I have been in life so I can be here, right now.  My life is not cookie cutter anything.  Very few have the same journey as another so that is not unusual to be unique, but I am thankful today that I can relate to people that I onced judged, was once ashamed to be, but now see it was all for a purpose.  So we begin November and all I am thankful for stay tuned...

Just Another Day for You and Me in Paradise

I know I often am told and joke about it myself on the fact that I am a princess in my house. My hubby is awesome, and right now and this past summer I got a taste of what my friends have all the time and that is him working all the time. My kids are awesome, but sometimes I do have to light a fire under them to do any chores. I am healthy, some things lurking around but doing ok today. I have a great job that I don't take home with me. I have great family who I actually like to talk to and miss when I don't see them, ok most of them I miss. I have great friends, who I have cut myself off from lately, hope to reengage soon. I am in paradise. Not so long ago I wasn't. I NEVER forget that. I know what depression, abuse, hate, disrespect, uselessness, unwantedness, fear, and hopelessness feel like and I am not even close. I know many who are, many who need to be reached out to and I feel compelled to try to do something. I feel compelled to pray that people who need Joy look for it from the Source of joy. I hear the song in my head that goes - if each one could reach one - and I mean it. I just pray that I can show, be a tool for Christ and show JOY! Routine is great and gives me a chance to organize my life a bit. I find the time to give to Him, to work at friendships, to find new ones. This may sound strange but I will start next week when I am used to the routine of waking up early again but it is good to have a goal.

As Time Goes By

Summer is passing by quickly. The FAIR starts next week!! I also get to pack up my child and move her to her new place. Hoping it all goes well. We have had a great summer and it has been great to have a great job.

My Heart Will Go On

I am sad. Not physically or even emotionally but mentally sad at how cruel and angry this world can be. The Colorado tragedy made me remember how I am choosing to not live in fear. After 9/11 it was really hard for Ashley or me to get her back on a plane to see her biological dad. Even today I saw a plane touching down at MSP and wondered if it was going to be used as a weapon. After Columbine I had to be ok with my kids going to school, knowing something could always happen. I don't think I will feel the same way about movie theaters but you never know. Then I go on facebook/twitter really anywhere and people are arguing about a company that does not even exist in MN. Most are arguing as people outraged over their freedom to have values. Some are arguing about not really offending people they would never be associated with. Most just like to hear themselves speak. (I laugh at this as I am typing to get my thoughts out but know it is just like talking to myself. :)) It seems so stupid. No, I am not calling people stupid this argument is stupid. I see people who have been forgotten everyday. Not just by their kids, or their ex spouses, but by the government and by humankind. That makes me sad. I feel I always have to end everything with a happy note so I will do the same right now. Vacation starts on Monday!!! Other than the Olympics maybe I will stay disconnected too and take a vacation from my problems, doubt it but maybe worth a try.